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蘆葦地帶 楊牧一那是一個寒冷的上午在離開城市不遠的蘆葦地帶，我站在風中想像你正穿過人羣─竟感覺我十分喜歡這種等待，然而我對自己說這次風中的等待將是風中最後的等待我數著陽台裡外的盆景，揣測榕樹的年代看清晨的陽光斜打一朵冬天的台灣菊那時你正在穿過人羣空氣中擁擠著發光的焦慮我想阻止你或是催促你，但我看不見你我坐下摩挲一把茶壺觸及髹漆精緻的綵鳳雙飛翼和那寓言背後的溫暖滿足於我這個年紀的安詳我發覺門鈴的意像曾經出現在浪漫時期，印在書上已經考過的那一章我翻閱最後那幾頁維心的結構主義，懷疑我的推理方式是不是適合你，祇知道我不能強制你接受我主觀的結論決心讓你表達你自己二決心讓你表達你自己選擇你的判斷，我不再追究你如何判斷你的選擇，歲月是河流，忽陰忽陽岸上的人不能追究閃爍的得失甚至我必須像你學習鍼黹一邊鉤毛線一邊說話很好很閒適的神色祇是笑容流露出些許不寧，有時針頭紮疼了纏著線團的食指：

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當技能成為貨架上的商品 精神、時間都放出來擺賣 別人可以一個價錢購入 我們還會主動包裝 雙手奉上 加送售後服務、品質保證 企圖提升品牌的口碑和價值 我們在做甚麼 我們不過是具體地給自己一個市場價值而已 當你要為自己定個價 你會值多少？

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每天從東一點 向西一點移動 往返往返 如時計的鐘擺 不停走向對岸 再努力回到原點

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憑著直覺走 手自動的轉動方向盤 左右左左 對，到了 路邊仍然停泊著同一艘小艇 一樣的門牌號碼 踏上一樣的小徑 按下一樣的門鈴 門內傳出斷斷續續生疏的琴聲 好不容易才停頓下來 老師說話了 維持一貫平靜、忍耐、明確的指導 近千節課堂快速重播 回到年少的歲月 面前這人曾經在我身上灌溉扶植 是多少的心血 面前的鋼琴、房間、牆壁、氣味、回音 都是回憶的一部分 承載了多少夢想、志氣、頹喪、疲倦、不堪 一切隨著曲終而散去 不期然的觸景傷情起來 睹物思人 我在懷念誰？ 看來我是在悼念自己

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看本地音樂劇《一屋寶貝》隨想
 By 潘翹 （刊於Mind Mag態度心理雜誌 Issue 018） A：「我要去看《水舞間》！」 B：「點解？」 A：「人地耗資廿幾億，當然要看啦！」
 B：「其實你係想看那廿幾億？還是想看個作品？」

 說實在，《水舞間》我沒有看過，但我相信用最多的錢絕對可以買得到最好的演員、最好的班底，做出驚世駭俗的亮麗效果，難怪鉅資製作一直是許多人用來誇耀的本錢，亦難怪有些觀眾入場純綷是為了滿足他們拜金的慾望。

 B：「我們去看《一屋寶貝》吧！」
 A：「點解？」 B：「人地是本地製作，許多人看過都話好感動，個個離場都成個喊包敢，應該好有人情味。」
 A：「其實你係想喊一餐？還是想看個作品？」

 今年九月看《一屋寶貝》重演，完場時喊了一餐飽是真的，基本上，開場不久，台上已經不斷在發放催淚彈。主角小雨跟父親朝晴的感情是故事的主線，
當中亦穿插

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在寒流侵襲當天拜訪京城 這一行並沒有既定的目的 純粹為回味一下老北京的味道 所以一切新建的地區都沒有刻意到訪 到了第三天煞有介事長途跋涉的去了六環外的宋莊藝術區 但當天剛巧是藝術節結束後的冷清期 站在長長的街道上四野無人 反倒感受到平常日子當地藝術工作者的孤清 或許習慣拜金的香港人來到內地參觀當地藝術 總會想到資金與維生的問題 究竟他們為甚麼能賺到幾千呎的工作室？ 怎樣經營一棟幾層高的畫廊？ 我們未必會立刻關心 他們作品的靈感、意義、美感、技巧 反而熱切好奇他們的帳簿 或許 錢，永遠是最困擾香港藝術工作者的一件事 大家為了搞藝術 都花了許多時間去做許多不是自己想做的工作 開班、做產品、接project、搞活動 就是做不出自己的藝術作品 到了一個地步 可能已經不是有沒有錢的問題 可能是人的精神真的無法兼顧太多 可能我們生命已經被生活俘虜了   在長城腳下的公社逗留了一晚

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有很多東西想寫下來 但自從搬家之後就沒有好好停過 一直忙這忙那 生活過份充實 其實會對自己感到抱歉 所以我回來了 應該說我很快會再回來的 因為此刻我還要完成那滿桌的工作

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聽說社會上有一種東西，最常見於大機構一開始，它會讓你享受到工作簡單愉快輕輕鬆鬆又一天，無驚無險又六點日子久了，你會發現，它會像鴉片一樣慢慢讓你失去戰鬥力、上進心最厲害的是，它會蠶食你的人性、淡化你的思想最後，你發現自己越來越模糊曾經象徵自己的東西慢慢會遺失聽說在公司管理上這種東西叫deskill就是對員工不要求太多的技術甚至透過自動化或專業化來減低員工的技術對抗deskilling，不是沒有辦法最常見的就是在工餘時間盡量做自己技術所在的事情每天花幾個小時、或者幾分鐘，證明自己沒有死只是一旦拿捏得不好把工作與興趣的比重混亂了變成妹仔大過主人婆，那就要小心因為很容易會在工作時魂不附體嚴重者會感覺到游離在自身身體和精神活動之外並時常感到對於自身生活猶如一個旁觀者聽說在心理病上，這叫 depersonalisation disorder人格解體障礙(猶如DSM IV裡面的dissociative

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一個遲鈍的人不代表他沒有感覺只是感覺的出來比較慢也正因為慢，令他的感覺更濃縮感覺雖不是轟烈，但絕不失分量像老火湯情感收起來，沒有不見了，沒有溜走了統統殘留在一個一個不顯眼的角落而他本來就是一個不動聲色的角色習慣了獨個兒處理那千絲萬縷的所謂感覺別人跟不上他的慢忍受不了他的靜止呼喝著：快呀！跑呀！衝呀！他們所不知道的是快速不是唯一活著的方法像蝸牛看起來一動也不動但你轉個頭，已經再找不到他了因為感覺已經帶著他走遠

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看畢Alice In Wonderland喜歡Tim Burton說故事的方法可能較早前看過的電影都犯上了畫公仔畫出腸的毛病這一次看愛麗絲夢遊仙境終能好好的享受一段由角色帶動的情節而不是去聽導演、編劇強加進去的意義或教訓聽到一些批評電影情節沉悶的說法說這個簡單的故事無須3D也可以拍得好我反而覺得它平鋪直述得仔細本來，愛麗絲夢遊仙境就是一個被人講到爛的故事你如何加鹽加醋、改頭換面都只會弄巧反拙反之，電影簡單的陳述卻成功表達這個童話故事本身關於現實與夢境的反思夢，一定要跟現實對立嗎？（這一點讓人想到莊周去了）夢本來就是一件真實不過的事情那何需否認夢中的所見所聞反而我們可以認真投入的盡情作夢當然，

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不知道從哪時開始放下興趣理想已經不再是令人心痛的事可能是因為明白了有些東西要是它屬於自己的話就永遠不會跑掉也是因為如此放下的這個動作，其難度越來越低曾經最珍惜的，我們會微笑著拱手讓人曾經下苦工的，我們會毫不在乎地棄之一旁反而，執迷（不悟）、（盲目）堅持成為一種遺失了的所謂年少輕狂的情懷成熟，相信並不是要看破紅塵然後坐著等死成熟，應該是認清了方向後全速前進然後無論成功失敗，都去完成它的歷史使命

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一直沒有跟太多人談及九型人格可能自己所知的只算是皮毛一點實戰經驗稀少，乏善可陳也可能是因為知道這門學問被人誤解／誤用得太多單是澄清謬誤就已經要費盡唇舌所以除非對方很有興趣否則我絕少跟人談起九型（其中也許只有姊姊及妹妹屬於例外）情況有點像傳教你發現了一套很棒很有用的道理但因為其中存在了一些爭議所以為了避免不必要的辯論於是便將它留給自己我就是這樣不過從探索九型的經驗中我發現很多東西都需要一種悟性時候到了就會真相大白所以九型心理學也好、信仰修行也好、科學研究也好到了一個地步，人就會提出一些差不多的問題齊齊回到哲學的基本說明了一切殊途同歸的道理那又何必強求呢問五號問：五號，最近在研究甚麼？答：易經。問：有甚麼發現呢？答：未知，不過聽說有些人用上幾十年也不明白。問：那，你還會花時間研究它嗎？答：唔...會吧。始終，它是中國文化的根源，幾乎是無所不包，一句話足以解釋一門學問，絕對值得花時間研究。

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身邊久不久便會出現一些高度自我防衛的人 我承認自己不懂得跟這些人交手 縱然我覺得他們討厭 仍得在一些場合中跟他們打照面 這時候，我必須保持一定的禮貌 那，究竟怎樣才能跟他們好好相處呢 解決問題必須先了解問題的成因 所以在處理相處問題之前 我可能要先問 人是在甚麼情況下才會啟動自我防衛機制？ 可能性或許有很多 就試試綜合幾個自己遇過的例子 一、自我形象低落 自卑是每一個人都會有過的經驗 因為我們都懂得比較 而往往亦會選擇一些比自己優勝的人來比較 這是十分常見的 但有些人卻可以經常挑剔自己 就算在沒有比較對象的情況下 也會輕易看到自己的不足 一旦他回到人群之中 由於太著意自己的缺陷 於是便會對別人的評語、動靜極度敏感 一廂情願地認為大家針對他的弱點 便會出現問非所答的自辯 導致他容易誤會別人的意思 其中一些進取型的，或會有先發制人的舉動 例如搶先控制話題

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有人問我公理和正義的問題 楊牧有人問我公理和正義的問題在一封縝密工整的信上，從外縣市一小鎮寄出，署了真實姓名和身份證號碼年齡（窗外在下雨，點滴芭蕉葉和圍牆上的碎玻璃），籍貫，職業（院子裡走積許多枯樹枝一隻黑鳥在撲翅）。他顯然歷經苦思不得答案，關於這麼重要的一個問題，他是善於思維的，文字也簡潔有力，結構圓融書法得體（烏雲向遠天飛）晨昏練過玄秘塔大字，在小 學時代家在漁港後街擁擠的眷村裡大半時間和母親一起，他羞澀敏感，學了一口台灣國語沒關係常常高瞭望海上的船隻看白雲，就這樣把皮膚曬黑了單薄的胸膛裡栽培著小小孤獨的心，他這樣懇切寫道:早熟脆弱如一顆二十世紀梨　有人問我公理和正義的問題對著一壺苦茶，我設法去理解如何以抽象的觀念分化他那許多鑿鑿的證據，也許我應該先否定他的出發點攻擊他的心態，批評他收集資料的方法錯誤，以反證削弱其語氣指他所陳一切這一切無非偏見不值得有識之士的反駁。

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壓抑　將一丁點的自己壓下去以為　可以不以為然但碰巧一丁點是碰不得的一丁點雖然它只不過是一丁點於是　在以為已經不以為然的時候它奮勇的突圍而出拆穿端莊的外殼直至赤裸、無地自容捶擊麻木的心情直至龜裂、粉身碎骨看到一丁點一手造成的破壞大不點對一丁點說：一丁點，我知你不高興（一邊用手輕拍小丁點的頭）乖，聽話，休息一會兒就沒事了（一丁點逐漸被大手壓下去）這樣就對了，沉睡吧好好作夢別出來打擾大家就對了

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昨天遇上這本要讀者動手把書逐頁開的書從沉迷記事簿到嘗試手作線裝書發現紙張的味道是書吸引人的重要元素可惜　潮濕的香港 是愛書人永遠的戰場自己幹文化：派對與革命DiY Culture: Party & Protest in Nineties BritainBy George McKayPublished by 破週報 POTS Weekly延伸閱讀：「幹了再說」的文化

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閱讀亞洲周刊最大的收獲就是每一個星期，為過去七天的零碎新聞來一次整合分輕重、知時勢、以免盲從附和好幾年來，作為它的忠實讀者對於大陸新聞，更到了極依賴的程度因此，對一些國內同胞的名字逐漸多了一份親切感加上早前受到某講師的薰陶對於網絡上的民間新聞有一種近乎嚮往的熱衷偶爾出現“某某，你媽媽喊你回家吃飯”之類的消息就會格外留心昨天趁有空檔參加了一個講座與會嘉賓就黃嘉瑜事件提出了北上採訪敏感新聞的一些提示亦稍微指出本地新聞業的核心問題劉慧卿質疑為何只有兩家電台採訪此宗民權人士受審的重要新聞陳韜文引用新疆事件解釋大陸進行輿論導向會採用“後發先至”的做法蕭若元認為封鎖傳媒的最終目的是掩飾官員貪污的問題、保護自身利益還有陳淑薇及劉銳紹對黃嘉瑜等新一代記者北上採訪的種種關注香港新聞行政人員協會副主席陳淑薇、Now TV首席記者黃嘉瑜、立法會議員劉慧卿、中文大學新聞與傳播學院講座教授陳韜文（

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人總會被外在的事物所牽引很少可以認真去審視自己當有一刻能靜下來好好跟自己談話便發覺跟外間開始分離得太遠有些人為要修煉自己的內心 就得避免外界的騷擾 追求空、淨化，就得禁慾、閉關 很多宗教強調靈修也是如此 就好像接通了intranet的同時一道firewall卻自動落閘令internet變成extranet正面的說法是過濾、保護負面去看就是封閉、操控忽然想到保障私隱與開放訊息可能是互相抵觸的特別是當兩者走到極端的時候更可能是一種give and take有得必有失的關係寫了這麼多歸根究底也是因為骨子里仍奢望著兩者兼得也就是說突破give and take的宿命變成the winner takes it all的結局也只有貪得無厭的人才會這樣想

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最近我在想，集體無意識是甚麼？我的潛意識或無意識究竟存放在哪兒？為甚麼一些自己也不知道的東西，會有另一個人能知道（例如塔羅、例如代禱）為甚麼經過一些地方，會覺得陰森、會覺得“有野”（例如醫院、例如殮房、例如deja vous）昨天，我慢慢得出了一點結論：意識，其實未必存放在人的體內意識，應該會像一盞燈從人的身體中向外發放於是連他的周圍也會是他的意識其中，接近光源的是潛意識然後，放射出來的有一部分是屬於自知的意識（又或者是調轉）不過，釋放出去的光線應該沒錯，就是無意識所以，身外的無意識有機會跟別人交疊造成一些令我們驚呼“好準”的神奇經驗而那些處於光線盡頭的意識，有可能會丟失留在一個地方，或漂流至另一個地方跟後來經過的人交疊經過的人越多，時間越久，那意識就越強用這個方向思想下去的話很多以前認為是神秘詭異的事情好像開始有頭緒了------------後記：寫完這篇，對靈魂出竅、魂游太空、

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另一個五分鐘是關於天地、山澤、雷風、水火的事情一些本來就在身邊是事情（例如大自然的法則）我們都忽略了很多年古人能從簡單的元素看出萬千變化現代人卻要從後來的複雜分析艱難地找回基本的意義果然是物極必反、循環不息但回到基本，又談何容易

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我有五分鐘我想盡量把一些想法寫下來關於兩位英年早逝的人回看他們走過的人生我看到兩種不同的執著兩種不同的才華兩種不同的風范卻同樣帶有相似的魅力我為他們的離世不免感到一下黯然但久留的卻是贊嘆與珍重趙來發先生及Michael Jackson先生善良天真而孤單告別的文人及表演者懷念你們　一路好走我的五分鐘也過了

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每天接觸的資訊離不開法庭、議會、政府及公司的消息雖然間中也會出現一些天災人禍的事故或民間組織的活動但作為一般市民，似乎已經自動被賦予對權貴動向的知情權只是越看得多，就發現原來自己所知的亦不過是一點皮毛「知識是叫人看到自己的無知」這句話在大學畢業時也曾經說過最近又再次浮出來頭腦上的知識可以不斷吸收但慎思明辨之後確實需要篤行不然，這個人依然可以是無知因為知識沒有為他帶來動力、沒有改變他的處境、沒有開拓他的世界現階段的進修終於告一段落正考慮是否繼續時間金錢當然是考慮的因素但最大的問題是不想看到一個滿腦子理論，卻知而不行的自己

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Headline - Saving Booky Originally uploaded by hldpn A one-year-old black dog named Booky has been trapped in between the walls of two temples at Sai Kung for nearly four days. She was pronounced dead when firemen pulled her out at around 10pm today.

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重溫近日的twitter，確實是費盡心神的兩個禮拜Twitter.com/hldpn:究竟誰在妖言惑眾？向人云亦云說不！ 2:40 PM Jan 8th from TwitterFox趙來發先生英年早逝，R.I.P. 5:44 PM Jan 8th from TwitterFox凡動刀的，必死在刀下。 5:46 PM Jan 9th from TwitterFox 基督教發動的恐怖歧視活動，只是自慚形穢、自曝其短。輸哂，自己卻不知。鬧劇一齣。 12:43 AM Jan 11th from TwitterFox蘇大牧的言論提醒我一句真理：面，係人地俾；架就係自己丟既！ 1:39 PM Jan 11th from TwitterFoxCertainly it is your right to do something but is it the right thing to do?

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永遠記得2009年，在戰火蔓延的一月，為自己作出了決定。寫著這一篇給自己的立場書時另一邊（視）窗正播著梅艷芳及草蜢20年前在演唱會中唱著《愛將》http://hk.youtube.com/watch?v=oKhszGcm23M作戰、鬥爭離不開我的人生爸爸給我改名的時候可能已經有這樣的洞見（Hilda有戰士的含義）難怪當年讀Sociology對class struggle這題目有深層的情意結而我人生中的片刻生死愛恨也可視為一個一個的戰場Pain is inevitable, struggling is optional.鬥爭是一個選擇而戰場也是一個選擇今天，我選擇去承受鬥爭的後果我也選擇了自己的戰場只要我仍然相信有公義 、信德、仁愛、和平只要我仍然相信可以行公義好憐憫存謙卑的心我就要跟披羊皮的主流鬥爭並要掏出自己的狐貍尾巴無可指摘、誠實無偽數數手指，整整20年被陶造、被燃燒、被使用被控訴、

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最近出現了一個撐某議員的群組某幾個曾經認識的人也紛紛加入務求為新一輪的道德抗戰注入新力量姑且看看他們的立場居然發現全部都是由另一個組織的聲明中抄出來的發起人應該是這場抗戰的下一代只能說：慘不忍睹，可怒也！究竟你們知不知道自己在撐甚麼在反甚麼？早陣子，大膽批評了一位「評論員」的網上評論除了因為內容東拉西扯、邏輯嚴重有問題之外也是因為這人亦算是個朋友看到他正氣凜然地、疑似客觀地拋出一大堆乏力的道理像維園阿伯的借題發揮過於一則嚴謹的社會評論真替他捏一把汗這些群組、這些評論說到底也只不過是希望能夠拉攏更多人站在他們那一邊既然沒有政治明星的口才魅力也沒有搞運動人士的激昂氣魄倒不如就直接講話要招收吶喊大軍、撐蓋會員靠人多靠聲大可能來得更有效果想到快樂王子兼一代偉大罪人Oscar Wilde王爾德在他的獄中書信De Profundis中這樣寫道Most people are other people.

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放假最好的節目就是煲新聞不知道是不是應節的緣故這幾天的港聞確實像耶穌降世一樣奇妙奇妙真奇妙地勤失獎金釀罷工搭港鐵狗咬警員單親母打女被捕的士司機追霸王客心臟病死急症室唔救人加上之前的雷曼事件、警員劣行等未了餘波......今時今日看新聞的動機其實不單是想知道社會上發生了甚麼怪事而是想知道還有哪些更離譜的事尚未發生一旦真的發生了，心裡反而更安樂因為證明了：沒錯，這個世界真的反了！世界急劇變得反常（你也可以說是進步）跟著它一起反常的人不會覺得自己反常（負負得正嘛）而跟不上的也認為自己超脫地正常（甚至是正確／正義）甚至有一個想法認為只要我不跟著世界反常我就是正義的了會這樣想的人（通常自己並不知道）就好像學校裡有一些同學以為不跟壞分子同流合污自己就會自動變成模範生了他們並不知道「不為」並不會令你成為君子你最多不用受罰但卻不會因為你甚麼也不做而變成正義

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地方滲著東洋風情與氣息連字體也混入了平片假名的神氣依鐵路而建的一家一戶住了幾個時代幾個文化的交錯是上一代再上一代留下的痕跡而留得下來的看來都是美好的回憶旅客背著一袋子糾纏的結好不容易逐一鬆解內裡空空如也卻依然留下了段段痕跡亂七八糟的條紋不帶血色眼前的蒼涼不及身後的荒涼從此把留得下來的化為更美好的回憶Powered by ScribeFire.

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Adam Smith的利己及自由市場理論在當年可能是一種革命性的想法政府干預市場在今天也可當作是破格的行徑只是難免令人覺得歷史在倒帶播放人類的發展原來就是不斷找方法回到故事的起點

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很久以前就喜歡George Orwell的Nineteen Eighty-Four後來看到Anthony Burgess的A Clockwork Orange也很自然地被它吸引住總覺得兩者給我一種相似的感覺（就算沒有看畢全書）思前想後，終於發現了箇中玄機原來是因為兩個故事都用上了自創語言的橋段Orwell的Newspeak跟Burgess的Nadsat都是恐怖的東西Newspeak代表了一種給思想受過洗腦的人民使用的語言二分化的詞語容不下矛盾吊詭黑白共存發條橙中的Nadsat則是故事主人翁所使用的語言好像是在行兇的時候都會用上被自己不熟悉的語言包圍原來能將人帶進很深的恐懼現實生活中真的有一種所謂國際語言的東西叫做Esperanto（聽說George Orwell就曾經飽受它煎熬，所以投射了他的恨惡在1984中的Newspeak上）

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一個人思想人世間的生死大問、無法無常毫無結論地思前想後不問結果，沒有前設，只為思考不過有些時候也會以為人生有答案幾年後面對牛市熊市次按危機衍生工具通脹通縮（及所謂推陳出新卻只是萬變不離其宗的投資產品）諸如此類一大堆金融財經話題突然發覺自己一直抗拒的經濟學科其實簡單得很（「業界彌漫沉重氣氛，愁雲慘霧、前景黯淡」說穿了也只不過是有些人輸掉一些錢，有些人賺少一些錢而已）社會從一開始就是圍著金融體系轉動把最原始的買賣交易一路擴大發展成股票外匯債券基金看似複雜其實很簡單只是，真的有不少人會將人生的價值看作為一大堆數字生兒育女要考慮的是一串數字享受人生要考慮的是一串數字就連迎接死亡也需要考慮一串數字人生的哲學可能就如這十個符號拼湊出各種組合一樣可以很複雜也可以很簡單想起了潘源良為林子祥寫的數字人生一邊找原唱者的視頻（卻發現了這個）跟著唱一下如果可以把30624700唱出感情可能，

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閱讀明報關於該報記者接連收到懷疑恐嚇電話的新聞其中很明顯透露了事件跟一家命危的集團有關記者將可以是獨立的兩宗事件扯在一起其實需要很大的勇氣因為隨時會惹來官非所以報道中刻意使用帶有「不明確」的字眼（如：懷疑、不明）末句還這樣寫：《明報》發言人表示，暫時不知道電話中人身分，亦不會作出任何推測。運用這些小動作來避免招惹誹謗官司之禍然而，寫的人其實已經早有定案文章所展示的種種線索都是用來引導讀者作出他預定的結論孰真孰假作為讀者我讀到這樣的一則報「導」覺得寫的人現在是將誹謗的罪名分散在讀者身上當讀者順著他的鋪陳，生出「德發集團恐嚇記者」的念頭他也可以理直氣壯的說：「我沒有說，是你自己這樣認為的。」現在是公器私用，拿讀者來協助你報復、泄憤嗎？其實，

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踏入八月發現港鐵車站的垃圾桶不翼而飛果然是奧運期間防恐襲的措施http://www.worldjournal.com/wj-hk-news.php?nt_seq_id=1753102早上談起建議不如大家自備黑色垃圾袋乘搭地鐵時順便充當人肉垃圾桶相信能為不少有需要人士帶來一些方便不過在我們的人肉垃圾桶出現之前有需要人士的乘客已經自行找到解決的辦法了而且還表現得非常有公德心呢

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「筆者已經不再信基督教了。」讀到一篇有關基督徒冷漠對待種族歧視的文章被虞瑋倩撇脫的開場白吸引住了很同意他在文章中指責基督教內部對有權有勢的人包庇袒護對社會實際弱勢人士的訴求卻視若無睹很明白到他的氣憤所以他說「筆者已經不再信基督教了」也無可厚非真的，這個教實在叫人爭不下不過，也要知道不信基督教跟不信基督著實是兩回事基督教跟基督兩者的落差有時大得讓人要這樣劃清：「我是基督徒，但我不信基督教。」也許，為了不讓基督的名字蒙羞也不想自己跟教會的「絕望真相」扯上關係一班稍知廉恥的基督徒都非不得已謹慎起來好像耶穌當年在地上畫東西一樣不發一言默默地拿起粉筆在地上畫畫圖畫、畫公仔、畫故事也可能是畫一幅可能找到出路的地圖也可能是畫一條清清楚楚的線表示：大家道不同不相為謀我不同意你，但我尊重你「做事的法則」但我不要跟你有牽連請你也尊重我同期時代論壇的眾議院作者古斌的怎樣才可以背叛福音？

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美國雜誌編輯協會每年都會選出最好的雜誌封面去年的入圍作品風格多樣、主題來自不同行業作為評審的應該很傷腦筋要一位網球好手跟股壇精英比賽始終有欠公允所以大會將參選雜誌分為名人大頭、抽象概念、流行時裝、新聞時事及生活服務五大類美國雜誌編輯協會也曾經選出四十年來的最佳封面作品一個時代，可能只會出現一個John Lennon人一生，可能只會遇上一次人類登陸月球的創舉更何況是恐怖襲擊、總統偷食等驚人事件所以，出色的封面，本身也需要配合天時地利人和要分辨出當下哪一件事屬於石破天驚，哪一件事只是過眼雲煙那就真的考編輯的經驗和功力了編輯的首要任務是確認雜誌的定位明明知道自己有鄭潔的本事你總不會拿著網球拍報名參加書法比賽吧其實做雜誌跟很多事情一樣需要好好花時間認識自己有些人喜歡先在市場找幾個對手（或參考對象）才裝身落場比賽但這樣做，

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近距離的雷電在耳邊無情地發出爆裂怒響電在閃，眼在閉雷越響，心越靜驚訝自己的平靜嘆息自己的無動想起蘇東坡先生《定風波》【三月七日沙湖道中遇雨，雨具先去，同行皆狼狽，余不覺。已而遂晴，故作此。】莫聽穿林打葉聲，何妨吟嘯且徐行。竹杖芒鞋輕勝馬，誰怕？一蓑煙雨任平生。料峭春風吹酒醒，微冷，山頭斜照卻相迎。回首向來蕭瑟處，歸去，也無風雨也無晴。

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有多久沒有聽到清晨的鳥兒歌聲有多久沒有聽到動物的安祥呼吸有多久沒有聽到引擎的低沉咆哮還有從戶外傳來流聲機的老歌聲有多久沒有在車廂內跟無聲的音樂跟無聲的自己一同沉默此情此境讓人想起徐志摩的《再別康橋》「軟泥上的青荇油油的在水底招搖在康河的柔波裡我甘心做一條水草那榆蔭下的一潭不是清泉是天上虹揉碎在浮藻間沉澱著彩虹似的夢尋夢？撐一支長篙向青草更青處漫溯滿載一船星輝在星輝斑爛裡放歌但我不能放歌悄悄是別離的笙簫夏蟲也為我沉默沉默是今晚的康橋」是康橋也好是潘翹也好也許今夜沉默會是最動聽的聲音

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擂台未等鐘聲響起拳手已忍不住較勁沒有拳套的強烈撞擊一下一下拳拳到肉這場應該是理性與感情之間的格鬥向來是長勝將軍的理性這一次遇上難題了因為拳證偏袒感情他不想讓理性贏中場休息理性吟著歌挑釁："害怕悲劇重演我的命中命中越美麗的東西我越不可碰"感情抿著嘴不發一言當作沒聽到目光集中在擂台的中間點他自知經驗不及對手體力身型裝備全處下風支持者也不及對手他唯一懂得做的是專心打好這場比賽拳證看在眼裡盤算著下一回合如何幫助感情下一回合的鐘聲快響起了（是理性是感情是拳證也是擂台的我）

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Keswick第一講論Spiritual Arts... deep deep down in the heart...那是人遇見神的地方... deep deep down in the heart...究竟在哪兒可能到人真的徹底失敗無法再靠經驗、學問、善行來繼續理直氣壯下去他才會回到那片藏在內心深處的空間人之所以為人或許就是因為他能夠感受到空虛而除了那位願意居住在人心內的神之外又有誰能夠把它填滿每當這片位於內心的深海產生震蕩人卻慣性地把它壓抑下去彷彿它是一場要把人吞噬掉的海嘯聽不見神在海面上說是我，不要怕人在沒有圍欄的涯邊在狹窄山路上步步為營神有聲音說不要怕，只要信來，跟從我論西門彼得西門的一生有很多次失敗但神由始至終只要西門做一件事就是：來，跟從我這一點，他做到了西門神一開始已稱你為彼得了Simon... Simon...

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近日看見幾件事情令我覺得這個地方很討厭討厭到發開口夢都是鬧人討厭到沒有去拜年，怕聽到太多無聊的論說討厭甚麼？討厭靠惡的無懶討厭欺善怕惡的懦夫討厭社會的不公義討厭應該行公義的人卻躲起來討厭人的無腦及八卦心態討厭傳媒誤導無腦八卦的人錯置問題的重點每一次感到討厭我都會找個人問：「請告訴我五個愛它（或他／她）的原因」今天再問了一個人這個問題他令我想起了耶和華跟亞伯拉罕的對話亞伯拉罕近前來，說：無論善惡，你都要剿滅麼？假若那城裡有五十個義人，你還剿滅那地方麼？不為城裡這五十個義人饒恕其中的人麼？將義人與惡人同殺，將義人與惡人一樣看待，這斷不是你所行的。審判全地的主豈不行公義麼？耶和華說：我若在所多瑪城裡見有五十個義人，我就為他們的緣故饒恕那地方的眾人。（四十五個、四十個、三十個、二十個之後）亞伯拉罕說：求主不要動怒，我再說這一次，假若在那裡見有十個呢？他說：為這十個的緣故，我也不毀滅那城。

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從友人的部落格中看到一所別致的教堂就是位於台中東海大學內的路思義教堂而每年聖誕節都會舉行一連串慶祝節目這是我在北京海淀區看到的新潮教堂後另一所令人刮目相看的基督教地標建築

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已經來到倒數的日子了2008年還有46天圣誕節還有40天離開現在的工作還有5天截稿還有1天倒數不是應該充滿期待的嗎為甚麼會變成一種壓力天啊早幾天跟林大王聊天談到耶穌究竟會不會明白工作壓力是甚麼木匠的壓力會是甚麼呢他會有quota和deadline嗎客戶會complain嗎需要危機處理嗎我想他的壓力可能會來自三千個餓著的群眾吧或者是在巨浪中面對慌張的門徒但他都有辦法處理得好好的因為他是神啊可以變餅變魚叫風浪平靜那我們呢我們可以怎樣始終，在人的限制下我們可以怎樣活出神兒女的身份呢有誰可以告訴我

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差不多兩個月沒有更新這個地方了過去這段時間，生活上出現了一些改變好像轉換新工作就是自己勇敢踏出的一大步從一家有愈百員工並且剛慶祝過銀禧的中型公司移至現在這家無論哪方面的數量都可以一雙手計算的小巧公司實在有很多需要適應的地方不過，來到今天在新工作渡過的第一個月總算結束了對新的環境和性質也開始多了一點熟悉感加上這個學期要上Financial Reporting的課所以最近都會看見我埋頭於報紙的財經版惡補就只怪小時候對經濟金融的東西極度冷感誰料到我居然也有這樣每天留意股市上上落落的一天真的，三歲只能定八十，中間的七十多年還是有很多預計不到之處的對了，為了那抬不起來，

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回港生活了十年不經不覺地跟身邊的小事物發生了感情而能夠建立親密關係的首數應該是洗衣店罷記得抱著剛洗好的衣服從隆亨騎著單車返回田心的日子抱著剛洗好的衣服從利安截綠的回樟木頭的家抱著剛洗好的衣服從西貢小巷沿小路步行回家後來住上環及西環的日子剛洗好的衣服都坐過河馬綿羊仔的可愛前座這些洗衣店猶如家人般照顧自己最私人貼身的東西他們有時也會恃著掌握到你的私隱而跟你賣熟而不能否認的是你身上的氣味真的會隨著洗衣店而改變（最香應該是西貢小巷那一家）光顧了那麼多家洗衣店印象中只有一家是男人當掌櫃的也是最專業最整潔的一家最近一次光顧有一件衫甩色殃及另外兩件這位洗衣男居然想到這樣讚

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炎熱的七月　坐不定的七月似乎11日從北京回來之便沒有停過下來：13日中學畢業同學會（香港區）；14日KYC日；16日揾工跳槽日；18-19日Crossmen Designers開會；20日請辭、與C的So Free特別企劃開會、與Y的「十年難得一見音樂會」炸腦；21日KYC日；22日SAC講同性戀、與M的「秋天的對話」特別企劃；23日So Free Editorial Meeting、「臨急睇碟夜」；24日TFC講同性戀；25日NC特別小組「最後一堂星期三的課」 原來我回來才兩個星期而已怎麼身邊的境物好像走馬燈般不斷換場景難道真如David Demian所說的世界會轉得越來越快嗎？ 經過了這瘋狂的兩個星期其實我需要掛上「閉關」的牌子落實地在好幾份「不能得把口」的工作上下點功夫

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好像已經有很久沒有寫過甚麼東西了從北京回來之後人好像變了一點隱蔽了好幾天可能是因為碰到了許多默默耕耘的人還是因為看見了許多無名的傳道者呢對比之下覺得香港信徒不是不努力而是不知道為誰太過努力了我們太容易陷入Joyce Meyer所說的Approval Addiction（中譯《自在作自己》）在香港人與人之間的空間狹小通訊加上互聯網的方便令人絲毫不費勁便可以將自己放在眾人的焦點之下每一位都是主角都是明星都是Person of the Year我們從各種network中建立人脈希望形成一股強大的勢力怎料也同時形成一種壓力有一些人就在這股力量之下毫不自覺地迷失倘若今天我們沒有觀眾沒有人需要去交代希望我們還懂得如何作出那些對得住生命之主的決定這個時候是不是又要回到「誰是你生命之主」這個問題上呢至於我的北京旅程這兒有些照片可以跟大家分享一下http://www.flickr.com/photos/

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Last night, had dinner with the youth pastors and staff at Addson's home. Enjoyed the Wildfire pizza as well as the champagne with peach. They spent the previous couple of days at a youth workers camp with Jaeson Ma and were enlightened and encouraged by the message and exciting time. Thank God for that - when they are good, I am good! Afterwards, they spent some time praying for me - for my

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The meeting at the Media Evangelism last night was okay. They have a good intention, I am sure. My considerations are very simple. Just as my motto, "If you want to do it, do it right", I wish I can offer my best in every opportunity such as this.One idea popped up in my mind today, about "backseat in heaven". It is about sinful people getting into heaven by grace. They know they don't deserve it

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Eye Test with Anson Originally uploaded by hldpn.07 ThurVisit Vicky.Lunch at home.Napped with Zoe and Spark.Dinner at home with Raymond's family.08 FriLite lunch at home.Pitt Street - Hey Presto, Allens Music.Opticzone - eye check with Anson.Dinner at home with Anson.Canaan Fellowship at night.09 SatLunch with Pang Lok at Eastwood.Parramatta - Rhodes (IKEA)Went for test drive on the 206GTI and

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Sparkie Originally uploaded by hldpn.6 Apr 2005This is the second of my Sydney homecoming trip. Had lunch at Eastwood Hotel with Agnes, parents and "Fung Fung" (Samuel and Crystal's son). On me. :)Afterwards, Agnes and I had a quick shopping at Koorang. I bought the iLumina (Teachers Edition) and Ken Davis' DVD at a bargain price at Koorong. Found quite a lot of fun stuff there today. Will pay

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18-19 Mar 05 027 Originally uploaded by hldpn.Zoe at Easter Show last weekend. Photographed by Agnes.

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The earth's rotation is slowing at a rate of 2/100th of a second every 100 years, which means that every day is slightly longer than the last... Oh, that's why! So it is not just my imagination. So the earth is spinning 0.4 seconds slower than it was 2000 years ago. Wow! How long is 0.4 seconds actually?

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How many times had I encountered the temptation to delete my OD posts? But today, I encourage myself: "KEEP WRITING. You will be surprised at what those words can do for you."

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One of the main things I have been doing over the past few days was browsing the web. And then I found the www.lynda.com site where there are whole heaps of tutorials on digital media design and development. And from there, I've realised the importance of the first 10 results of all search engines. No one has ever taught me that. As I surfed around, I also found out that there is this TV adaptor

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Dear Blog, This is my first enrty in 2005. Hope you don't mind that it is already 15 days after the New Year's Day. I have been very busy, busily figuring out what is going on in my life and where should I be heading. I will need you to help me keep track of my thoughts and feelings in the days to come. Last night, we had the instructors' meeting at church. After the trauma over the past

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How I long for a good sermon, a good worship, a good hymn, a good brotherhood, a good church... I realised that I am in deep hunger and thirst for God. I need something that can really lead me to God. I need things in good quality, not hype, not instant heat. I am tired of listening to second hand messages. I am sick of dealing with kindergarten problems. Dear God, can you please take me out of

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Watched the live webcast on Sy Rogers speaking at the CHC yesterday. Sy was, once a time, a homosexual activist who later converted to Christ. He has been giving talks to people around the world for the last two decades. Based on his talk yesterday, I would say he is a very good and powerful preacher with a dramatic background and dramatic charisma. The message was very real, down-to-earth and

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During my quiet "office" hour yesterday, I went through my serving journey at church in the past 15 years. I was grateful to have realized that God has been present in every stage of my growth. The first ten years were all about nurturing and equipping. I was very blessed by my mother church who rooted my faith deeply in the Word of God. The next five years was about being practical, about

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Narcissus 那喀索斯 ( 因愛戀自己在水中的影子而憔悴致死的美少年，死後化為水仙花 ) The Myth Echo was a beautiful nymph, fond of the woods and hills, where she devoted herself to woodland sports. She was the favorite of Diana, and attended her in the chase. But Echo had one failing: she was fond of talking and, whether in chat or argument, would have the last word. One day Juno was seeking her husband, who she had reason to

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The coming week is going to be exciting: 4 Dec Singing competition 5 Dec Christmas band practice 7 Dec Press conference at 7:30am, Furneral 8 Dec YWGS Christian Fellowship, Prayer Meeting at Kennedy Town Baptist Church, Choir practice 9 Dec LTG 2 Worship Team practice 10 Dec High School tutor meeting 11 Dec Worship Team meeting, LTG 2 worship, Christmas band practice 12 Dec Baptism, Carols by

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The worship at SAC last night was one of the best and of the most crowded. We had Martin on piano and lead, three vocals, Christie on keyboard, Chris on guitar, Hiroko on flute, Paul on Saxophone, forgot-the-name on congas, forgot-the-name on bass and me on drums. The eleven of us (!!) had the shortest rehearsal and sound test ever due to the prolonged Mandarin service before us. The sister on

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Thorns Author: Unknown Sandra felt as low as the heels of her Birkenstocks as she pushed against the November gust at the florist shop door. Her life had been easy, like a spring breeze. Then in the fourth month of her second pregnancy, a minor automobile accident stole her ease. During this Thanksgiving week she would have delivered a son. She grieved over her loss. As if that weren't enough,

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So many activities took place over the weekend - rehearsal 1/2, worship, choir, wedding, rehearsal 2/2, wedding banquet. And the travelling to and from around Hong Kong made my head spin. It would have been so much nicer if I still have my bike with me. I had so much fun worshipping with the youngest team at the youth worship on Saturday. We sang seven songs and five of them are new ones!!

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People said that Wednesday is the most productive day of a week. I can agree with that today. Work is generally getting better and the editorial department is getting more friendly to the others these days - like helping others with jobs that aren't belong to us. And now, at the end of a working day, I can say to myself, "Very well done, good staff." Went to visit the triplets last night. Alda

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I love the weather these days. It is getting all dry and chill and the morning breezes are freshening enough to keep you cool all day. The Teddy Bears are cuddling each other and getting into hibernation. Interesting enough, when the climate gets cooler, people tends to get closer together. That is why Christmas is such a cozy and heartfelt holidays. Can't wait for Christmas to come. "Chestnut

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Thanks to the promotion of Virgin Atlantic. Everyone is talking about the cheap round trip tickets to Sydney today. I've only learnt about the promotion late last night when Amy mentioned it in our conversation about the passport renewal stuff over the phone. Then I thought about Auntie Louisa who also mentioned about looking for cheap ticket. However, deadline is today and I couldn't get hold of

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Borrowed from God Last Sunday, for the first time, I played the guitar at SAC evening service. It was a very special experience, not because I had to use my unpolished guitar tricks before the experts such as Paul and Chris, but because of a prayer we made before the service which went like this: "Lord, all of our gifts, we borrowed from you. They do not belong to us at all. You give and take

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One interesting discovery lately is that the CHC has obtained ISO 9001:2000 earlier. This is one thing that I have been expecting from modern church like the CHC. Wow, it is certainly eye opening. Good work, mate. Bravo! I don't know, but as far as I could understand, there are only a handful of church people that are keen on management systems. Most of the others are afraid or maybe bothered /

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Every once in a while, we need to get back into the place of solitude. May it be a retreat, a retirement or just a rest from all the things that are going on. I thank God that in the last couple of days, he granted me with such time that I could once again look at the mirror and give myself a self check up. ---------------------------------------------- God's word is like a mirror, as told in

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Didn't know it was Danie's last sermon at SAC yesterday evening. He is leaving for UK this month. I am going to miss him a lot. He is, I reckon, the best preacher for youth and kids among the ones I have met in Hong Kong. His attributes: creative, dedicated, whole-hearted, down-to-earth and most importantly he is FUN AND HUMOROUS!!! Chi Shing led worship for the first time last night. There were

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Started jotting notes half way through Rev. Mike Connell's sermon last night. The bible passage caught me. This has been the second time in a week that I listened to the life of Jephthah. (So it is the Jephthah season now, eh?) If I need to give his life a headline, I might use "Choose life", "Breaking the bondage of rejection", or something like "Vow if you dare"! (If you read the end of Judges

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What a camp!!! Praise the Lord for all the blessings we experienced in the four-day camp. I guess all the 16 of us from KYC had learnt a lot and our horizons were expanded tremendously. Nothing can make me feel more excited than seeing people from different churches joining together with walls demolished and agendas put aside. Such a feeling is so free and full. God really answered my prayer and

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Our God speaks. There has been a lot of revelations from God lately. A few days ago, God showed me His almighty power as he did miracles in the hearts of my family and among my friends. Soon afterwards, He spoke to me about the things I need to repent and turn away from. One of such things is my pride on my previous churches and my prejudice on my existing church. In some ways, I am very proud

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The weekend, spent 80% in the house of God. Listening to God and spending time with Him was exactly what I needed to do to overcome my so-called 'cultural shock'. Thank you Lord for comforting me and teaching me. My heart was changed because of you. "Better is one day in Your house, better is one day in Your court, better is one day in Your house than thousands else where." Back to church

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Moving from one dynamic culture To another dynamic culture Is NOT like getting of a bus At a bus stop And waiting for the next bus To pick you up. It' more like Jumping from an aero plane To another aero plane flying in another direction And you can't do it without help Without a helicopter Or a shuttle Or at least, a parachute In case you fall, and a lot have fallen. Shifting

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Judith, Joseph and I joined hundreds of volunteers and youth leaders at the second briefing for the Kingdom Warrior camp last night. It was fun and I am sure it will be even more fun next week at the four-day camp. I am excited to be part of the movement and I just pray that we can see Your glory fall and many hearts turning back to You. After the briefing, I realised that this isn't going to

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Last night, Laszlo and I have decided to start working on the recording side of things instead of the performance side. It was funny because I was just thinking about quitting and before I mentioned anything, things started to move on and carried me along. Praise the lord.   During the great discovery session last night at his studio, I also found out that Dennis is also part of the team. The

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I am back. Now literally sitting before the piles of work accumulated during my leave, well, need to come back to the stressful life here. Thank God for the vacation and the machine is now refreshed and geared up. Just need to see how far it can run. Started reading the new "The Message/Remixed" on the plane and found it such an amusing book to read if you throw away all the presumptive

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Spent the whole day driving from Gold Coast back home. Can't see straight at the moment, everything seem to be a little bit blurry after the 11-hour drive. HaIt was interesting to chat with dad and mom during the drive. Talked about things that we've never talked about. It was amazing. Praise the Lord that before I even try anything, God has already prepared a lot (and I mean a lot) of people to

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First of all, last night's closing celebration at the Hillsong Conference was spectacular. The anointing of the Holy Spirit was so strong and there were many many people responded to the altar call even when there was no sermon at all. And the frightening fireworks at the end were just... madness. =) It was a great experience to sit next to a group of hand-sign people during the meeting. I tried

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I am now sitting at the Internet Cafe at Hillsong Conference. It has been a great week here. I feel so blessed and privileged to be able to enjoy such topnotch sermon and worship and people and fun. Thank God for the treat. =) This morning's sections were amazing. God truely is among us and it is evident that He is touching all of our hearts. I felt so relieved when I decided to set my goal, my

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The expereince at the Hillsong Conference has been quite breathtaking - also due to the frequent walk (jog) between Sydney SuperDome and State Sports Centre! I have received so much over the past couple of days and I am unable to put everything down here at this time of the day. For information and news about the conference, check out the Hillsong Conference Official Website. Another website

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Spent the morning with Dad visiting some insteresting places around Parramatta, Gladesville and Leichardt. It was interesting to see that the Greek suburb became so quiet after yesterday victory over Portugal. Went to Agnes' place, hanged around with the kids for a while and headed off to the Hillsong Conference 2004. It was awesome. I arrived at the SuperDome at 5:30pm and saw tonnes of people

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Got up at around 7am with all the noise brought by Anson coming home from Singapore. Oh my, this younger sister.... she has gotten herself into this LV, Gucci labelling game... My goodness. Anyway, I sort of welcomed her (or she welcomed me), had breakfast together and then headed off to Koorang Books - my favourite bookstore ever. It is so funny to meet so many people at Koorang at around 8:30

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Woke up very late today. Went to yumcha with parents and Agnes at Carlingford. Dad was very interested at my digital cam. What a pity that I have left the charger and batteries at the office (in HK), otherwise I don't have to be so careful about the batteries consumption right now. =( After lunch, Dad and I had a driving "rehearsal" to Homebush Bay - the place where the Hillsong Conference will

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It is amazing to find myself sitting in front of the computer again - this time sniffing my nose, coughing out loud with a heater next to me. Yesterday I was still struggling through work and in within 24 hours, I have already familiarized myself with the people and the lifestyle here in Sydney. It was an extremely smooth flight except for the delay and resulted with a flight change. However,

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Leaving town for 2.5 weeks is actually not as easy as I would have expected. Getting things done ahead of time was a great demand when you have office work, church work, housework (and all the last minute shopping) all falling onto one pair of shoulders at the same time. People who are close to me were unfortunate enough to become victims of my stressed out condition. As things were pressing

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It has been an exciting but busy week. Every night, there would always be something going on. Most of the time, there were more than one thing and my schedule book looked like a mess - crossing out and filling in all over the place - as if they were fighting against each other trying to conquer my timeslot. I know I can't do it all so I need to give and take; and take and give. Now if you ask

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This summer, put on your fire gear! Two of the hottest youth preachers are going to ignite the young people in Hong Kong. Jaeson Ma from Campus Church Networks and Ewen Chow from the Joshua team are preaching here in Hong Kong at 22 June-1 July and 28-31 July respectively. Last night, I had the privilege to attend a pre-camp prayer meeting for the Kingdom Warrior Camp. All the youth workers

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Yesterday as I was worshipping with thousands of brothers and sisters at the Hong Kong Stadium, two words came to mind – Saved Sinner, nothing more. God continued to remind me that I am nothing other than a sinner who was justified by His grace. Martin Luther made use of the Latin phrase simul justus et peccator to illustrate the biblical view of justification. It is made up of four words: simul

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Got a copy of Whence He Came's new album and was very impressed. I remember meeting this band five years ago at Revival Church when we played at a Christian band competition. Of course they won. Now after five years, they are releasing their second album with so much improved in the sound selection and overall finishings. Stephane... what can I say. Just made me proud to be his student while

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Last night at St Andrew's, we had the first midweek praise and worship service entitled "Shout to the Lord" at 19:30 after a long period of anticipation by many of us. Leaving the office at 19:10, I jumped onto a 970 bus across the street and alighted at Nathan Road, Jordon at 19:27. Running as fast as I could along Nathan Road like those "cop chasing villain" scenes, I dashed into the prayer

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After a day with SIS - the "sleep insufficiency syndrome", I went to play the piano with a very different mentality – something similar to the floating in space, lost in the world sort of feeling. With that kind of simple mind, we had fun exploring new ways in interpreting some good old songs. While I was singing 'He Binds the Broken Hearted', I suddenly felt the power in the song and began to

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Three weeks to go and I will be home for a meaningful three weeks. So right now, I am busily working on some last minute's rush before I leave. Last night, while I was at the Count Basie Orchestra concert, I had a good time of pure relaxation - just sitting there and let the music work its way in me. Felt a little bit refreshed as I walked away from the auditorium. I have been trying to figure

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